Keep Going

Thats what I tell myself everyday. Keep going. Patients default, criterias unfulfilled, patients unsuitable, patients decide to leave S'pore for good, getting book for ending late. I just say, keep going, do whatever I can do. Plan whatever i can plan. Still things are never smooth.

Ppl outside dental school can never understand our agony, our situation. School is not just school. Everyday is a battle to be won. From planing of sessions, who to be seen, phone call and more phone calls, wat to be done, things to be prepared, instruments to be ordered, timing to be followed, labworks to be rushed to keep up with clinical schedules, lectures to attend (which is really the easiest), seminars to be prepared with clinical findings, Treatment planning (which differs from instructors to instructors), criterias to fulfil to take competency tests, searching high and low for patients with indications to meet criteria and take competency tests. Rules to follow, so many obscured ones that u only learnt about when u get screwed or if u r lucky told off. Those above are only things to be done if everything run smoothly which doesnt happen in dental school, at least not to me.

Patient's default, patient cannot make it for the timing u scheduled, change appointment, change instructors with ur classmates (who r also having troubles just like youself). Labwork screwed up (not by yourself), things that you never know that you have to know that are so remote that you may never know until u have been questioned. Your imperfection is not allowed, not acceptable.

I searched my soul. I've done all i could to keep up. I did all the planning, i did all the calling, i did all the thinking, i did all the reading, i did more reading than i am supposed to, i question to learn, i yearn to learn, yet i want to fulfil my criterias so i dun get retained. Statistics have shown that 1 out of 6 guys in a class will be retained. Looks like I'm on my way there.

If u ask me if I am able to do a those criterias that i am supposed to fulfil. I will say yes. Just that I havent got them yet. Keep going someday I'll get them to come. Just hope that its within this year.

Most stress come from luckier classmates where things just goes their way. 1/2 a page of OD card is all that it takes for them to fulfil their criteria. I'm on my way to the 3rd. Envious I'll say I am. Yet, I'm glad that ppl can move ahead coz they are all my friends not classmates.

Keep going Class of 2007.

Things Not To Do!!!

I am awake now coz my dear sister force me out of my bed at 12 midnight just to fix her stupid wireless connnection for her lappy.

Things one should never do is to force a person sleeping to wake up and do some stupid nonsense like this. For one I will get damn damn damn freaking pissed off. Under the influence of lack of sleep and stressful violent nightmares I've been having, she is actually endangering her ownself by commiting such an act.

2nd thing not to do to me, is to restrict me to my food when I am hungry. That have serious consequences as well.

Maybe I'm just an ass. But I think its my basic instincts to have my sleep and food.

To The Next Level

Literally, indeed I am officially up to the next level to Clinic 3 which presently is in quite a mess and personally I do not like mess. It give me the feeling of unease and what I see influence my mood. I believed it works very much of many ppl. So I'll be expecting the ppl who works there to be in a pretty bad mood when I starts my clinics in this new playground. Let's hope we dun get screwed too badly.

Personally, I do not dislike school. In fact with the out look of so many clinical sessions, I'm pretty thrilled. Aim of this term; Learn more, Practice more and Know more. I still will admit that I am inexperience. I expect no smoothsailing term. There's bound to be obstacles, and even disheartening events. Yet, I will learn and nurture in this harsh environment. Motto of the term, pick urself up at where u fall. I believe even experience clinicians do make mistakes, all I need to make sure is that I am not going to commit any mistakes due to insufficient preparations on my part.

Today, the most successful class outing ever has happened with almost 100% turn out. The sad part is what brought the class together is 9 sets of papers for booking of instructors rather than the class spirit. Throughout the booking session which took us from 3pm all the way to 7.30pm. Due to the fact that it is indeed a very complicated process. Great job to dennis, adrian and nijam who planned out everything. Imperfection is within expectations, perhaps we all should show more appreciation. Honestly, without them, we all can go forget about seeing patients. I apologise for the imperfections I've raised, I was being myself again, an idealist.

Many I know hated how holidays passed by so swiftly and the impending beginning of the new game. Perhaps, its the environment we hated rather than the school itself. Once again, I shall say. Schools really isnt that tough, just that we should work together as a class to fight the battle rather than as individuals trying to outdo each other. Coz at the end of the day, we are fighting for the BDS. I guess things will still pretty much be the same, coz ppl are many times too often lured by the immediate rewards of self-gain, rather than to look at the greater picture for the good of everyone in the long term. Maybe becoz its too obscured. Yet for simplified version please watch "A Beautiful Mind".

Simply put it in this way, would you rather be just someone who graduate from dental school in 2007 or be someone who is part of a class 2007 and proud of it. I'm not good with words, so may not make much sense to you all. Idealistic thoughts I guess. Perhaps thats why I have so much frustrations at times, coz I dun understand people.

To the few who still believe. You will be my friend after everything and not my classmate.