Went to highlight my hair yesterday... Well its my 1st time so basically I've no idea how things gonna turn out.. Anyways, now I know. Its okay to colour your hair.. just DUN BLEACH it!!!!
My folks dun really like my new look.. personally i dun like it very much too.. think i look like ah beng. Haiz.. at least for once ding dong and I agreed upon something. But he blamed me for spoiling his hair.. Fair enuff I'm the one who wanna have the hair dyed. He did mentioned before that he's happy with his black hair.. Anyways what done cannot be undone.. think I'll just it grow... Probably next time I'll just dye it and not bleach la...
Basically this weekend SUX!!!! Did nothing.. never even mug. Dunno why I simply cannot get down to studying although the ding dong test is really really close.. probably I'm just lazy. Probably there's a better reason. Like Helen Keller said "Your Heart has its Reasons that reasons do not understand."
Sunday, November 23, 2003
Thursday, November 20, 2003
Thanks Is All I Can Say
This blog is now really public. Think my new frds just wanna know how am I feeling after hearing the bad news. Quite touched indeed.
A sweet yet blur looking frd come up to me today during our lab lesson.
"Hey (My name) are u okay?"
I was a little stunned.
"Yah, I'm okay. Why?" I replied
"I read your blog. You sounded very sad."she said and I saw the sympathy in her eyes. I'm very touched.
Little did I expect that something I written here will catch anyone's attention. Even if it did, I dun think anyone will care. So, I'm really quite surprised. Thanks is all I can say.
Still I wasn't exactly in the best of mood today. Pissed with a frd today when she was simply being her usual self trying to irritate me. I was too harsh to her I believe. She accepted my rubbish.
Nice little cute frd said again
"You are in a bad mood doesn't mean that the whole world and to bear with your rubbish".
Thanks is all that I can say. (For putting up with my rubbish)
A sweet yet blur looking frd come up to me today during our lab lesson.
"Hey (My name) are u okay?"
I was a little stunned.
"Yah, I'm okay. Why?" I replied
"I read your blog. You sounded very sad."she said and I saw the sympathy in her eyes. I'm very touched.
Little did I expect that something I written here will catch anyone's attention. Even if it did, I dun think anyone will care. So, I'm really quite surprised. Thanks is all I can say.
Still I wasn't exactly in the best of mood today. Pissed with a frd today when she was simply being her usual self trying to irritate me. I was too harsh to her I believe. She accepted my rubbish.
Nice little cute frd said again
"You are in a bad mood doesn't mean that the whole world and to bear with your rubbish".
Thanks is all that I can say. (For putting up with my rubbish)
Thursday, November 13, 2003
Pre-Birthday Depression
"I got Pre-birthday depression..." I said
"Why depressed?" ding dong asked
"Shouldn't you be very excited over the coming party.. well if you are not.. how come I am?" ding dong continued.
Actually the truth is that I simply neutral about the coming Saturday party. Ppl has been asking me if I'm excited. Ppl like mother especially. I always will ponder for a moment and decided to say yes. Not because I am truly excited but I think mummy is expecting that reply. Well, I guess I really owe my mummy and sister this time round.. They are the ones coordinating the whole event.. I did nothing and as a matter of fact dun feel like doing anything.
Friends has been asking me. How to get to the venue of your party? Why choose such a f**k up place? I was quite pissed. Coz my mum chose the place. And since its my party who are you to criticise. Actually is more disappointed with them lah.. If inaccessibility is gonna stop they from coming. I'll see who actually deserve my friendship.
Maybe becoz of that it really affect my mood for the party. Can't really be bothered to call and confirm if ppl will be coming. Just think that I've invited them, done my part as friend liao. Now, its their time to make their choice.
Well, of course there are good frds.. who will be there.. without questioning..
Probably there are other things bothering me also. Growing up is a chore.. problems that never seems problematic keeps bothering me these days.. Probably its more of quarter-life crisis than pre-bday depression.
I wanna be like ding dong who is forever happy... But like he said "if I'm not, how come he is?"
"Why depressed?" ding dong asked
"Shouldn't you be very excited over the coming party.. well if you are not.. how come I am?" ding dong continued.
Actually the truth is that I simply neutral about the coming Saturday party. Ppl has been asking me if I'm excited. Ppl like mother especially. I always will ponder for a moment and decided to say yes. Not because I am truly excited but I think mummy is expecting that reply. Well, I guess I really owe my mummy and sister this time round.. They are the ones coordinating the whole event.. I did nothing and as a matter of fact dun feel like doing anything.
Friends has been asking me. How to get to the venue of your party? Why choose such a f**k up place? I was quite pissed. Coz my mum chose the place. And since its my party who are you to criticise. Actually is more disappointed with them lah.. If inaccessibility is gonna stop they from coming. I'll see who actually deserve my friendship.
Maybe becoz of that it really affect my mood for the party. Can't really be bothered to call and confirm if ppl will be coming. Just think that I've invited them, done my part as friend liao. Now, its their time to make their choice.
Well, of course there are good frds.. who will be there.. without questioning..
Probably there are other things bothering me also. Growing up is a chore.. problems that never seems problematic keeps bothering me these days.. Probably its more of quarter-life crisis than pre-bday depression.
I wanna be like ding dong who is forever happy... But like he said "if I'm not, how come he is?"
Tuesday, November 04, 2003
Growing Up
Bad news from frds and abt frds... Thought matters never involve me... Yet, it does somehow. Troubled I am now. Helpless as always.
Story about 2 guys 1 gal. I known not for long but good frds I could feel.. Could there ever be platonic relationship.. I assume no. From what's happening to them.
To simplify complicated story:
1 attached guy(A)+1 unattached guy(B)+1 used to be unattached gal(C)
B liked C.. but think that things wun work out and gave up
C got attached with guy she dun like (D) becoz of companionship
A declare to C that he likes her. C says she likes B.
A upset coz he know C and D will not last. Will be upset if C is hurted.
A dun wanna see C anymore, things cannot be normal anymore.
B dun wanna things to turn out this way. Troubled and helpless.
Still quite luan i guess.. was complaining to a new frd abt it like 20min ago. Realised that self-sympathy is good for health.
Growing up in never good for health. You grow towards death and experience unhappiness along the way. That's why I like to avoid it.
Ding dong is damn good at it. He is forever having a hell of a good time. Be it during Anatomy CA or Sentosa. He never seems to grow up mentally. Can be ignorance or choose to ignore of the problems thrown to him.
Sometimes I'm jealous of him. Why am I enduring all the shits and he have all the fun.
'Why r u always happy?' I asked
'Becoz u take all the shit' Ding Dong answered without a shadow of a doubt
'I shd have known better. But why me?' I questioned
'Well you choose to care, choose to grow up. You chose yourself' Ding Dong said in a smiley face the very face that I wonder if its natural or fake.
Coz he always show ppl his smiley face even when I'm upset.
Talking to Ding Dong isn't therapeutic at all coz he dun care at all. In fact now, I felt worse...
Story about 2 guys 1 gal. I known not for long but good frds I could feel.. Could there ever be platonic relationship.. I assume no. From what's happening to them.
To simplify complicated story:
1 attached guy(A)+1 unattached guy(B)+1 used to be unattached gal(C)
B liked C.. but think that things wun work out and gave up
C got attached with guy she dun like (D) becoz of companionship
A declare to C that he likes her. C says she likes B.
A upset coz he know C and D will not last. Will be upset if C is hurted.
A dun wanna see C anymore, things cannot be normal anymore.
B dun wanna things to turn out this way. Troubled and helpless.
Still quite luan i guess.. was complaining to a new frd abt it like 20min ago. Realised that self-sympathy is good for health.
Growing up in never good for health. You grow towards death and experience unhappiness along the way. That's why I like to avoid it.
Ding dong is damn good at it. He is forever having a hell of a good time. Be it during Anatomy CA or Sentosa. He never seems to grow up mentally. Can be ignorance or choose to ignore of the problems thrown to him.
Sometimes I'm jealous of him. Why am I enduring all the shits and he have all the fun.
'Why r u always happy?' I asked
'Becoz u take all the shit' Ding Dong answered without a shadow of a doubt
'I shd have known better. But why me?' I questioned
'Well you choose to care, choose to grow up. You chose yourself' Ding Dong said in a smiley face the very face that I wonder if its natural or fake.
Coz he always show ppl his smiley face even when I'm upset.
Talking to Ding Dong isn't therapeutic at all coz he dun care at all. In fact now, I felt worse...
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